A letter to all Mothers: Happy Mother’s Day 2013

May 12, 2013 · New York, NY ·

To become a mother is to forever allow your heart to walk outside of your body, in a world that’s as much crazy as it is amazing, as frightening as it is wondrous, as small as it is endless. True story – I never thought I would be a Mom… 

At the age of 18, when I wrote down my goals in life, CHILDREN were just never in my “plan”. But the Universe said otherwise and at the young and oh so naive and ignorant age of 23 I became a Mom for the first time and holy freaking CRAP! I remember my doctor saying from the day my son was born, my sole purpose as a parent was to create a human being that was kind, loving, and could survive… Simple enough I said… I’m kind.. I’m loving…. I survive… HAAAAA!!!! 

In May of 2003 my worries consisted of food, new sneakers and all the partying I would do once my son was born. By July 12th, 2003 at 11:00pm my worries consisted of the world coming to and end before my son was 5, traffic lights breaking down just when I was pushing a baby stroller across the avenue, and bosses that wouldn’t understand how important a kindergarten midday performance of “The wheels on the bus” was to a Mom… 

With all that anxiety, I was barely surviving. And then I did it for a second time doubling all those worries to the gazillionth power! What the flippin’ hell! LOL To become a Mom is to forever change your life, to forever change your goals, to forever change how you see the world. 

To become a Mom is FRIGHTENING! It still scares the living day lights out of me. I often feel crazed. I often feel overwhelmed. I often feel like I am going to lose all of my remaining brain cells. And I often feel like I don’t know what the F**K I am doing. When you leave the hospital, they give you a bag with similac, pampers, lotions and a list of pediatricians…. 

What they need to do is give you and encyclopedic manual of “What to do when shit hits the fan as a Parent and you’re ready to check yourself into an asylum”… That would have been more helpful. 

But to become a Mom is a beauty that is nearly indescribable. It’s like no other experience life could give you. It’s beautiful. It’s challenging. It’s forever learning. It’s happiness wrapped in lifetime. It’s love that leaves you speechless. It’s joy that forces tears to flow. It’s raw. 

BEING A MOM IS TOTALLY FKIN RAW, DAMMIT!!!!! 

Becoming a Mom will challenge EVERYTHING you believed in and EVERYTHING you thought you knew… 

Becoming a Mom is not one of…. But rather THE BEST THING to have happened in my life. All that I’ve worked up to be and I am, I attribute to being a parent. My eyes see the world differently and I know deep in my core it’s because I have 2 people that depend on me, look up to me, and I have to show them how amazing life is.. And the ONLY way I can do that is by taking care of myself and dreaming as big as my heart can dream…

It’s my privilege to be a Mom to Justin and Evie, and today, just as every day, I value that privilege and hold onto that privilege in the highest regard. I thank everyone for the wonderful Mothers Day wishes…. 

But most importantly, to all the Moms, Step Mamas, and Village Mamas.. I hope you know how amazing you really are. How nobody else could do what you do. How you are a dream come true to your children. You are a Goddess. And how Marvel comics can’t compete because YOU are the TRUE definition of a Super Hero. 

I hope today you were reminded just how much you are valued. 

Cheers to all you Beautiful Mama Queens. Happy Mother’s Day.