A letter to my Daughter: Happy 9th Birthday

A letter to my Daughter. Because you are a big deal. Happy 9th Birthday.

April 25, 2015 at 12:05am

April 24, 2015

My Queena,

We were getting ready to go out for the day, the 3 of us were by the door wondering where you were, as usual… So, I marched to your room about to hurry you, and instead, I stopped and admired what you were into. I witnessed the care you were taking in dressing your doll. You carefully put on her jacket, and slipped on her shoes. You patted down her hair, curled her under your arm.. and then you did the thing that made me smile the most today.. you kissed her and said “Let’s go.”

You are still my little girl… and it was at that moment that I was reminded… how amazing you are.

Everything is a big deal to you. The good, and the bad. The beginning of Spring is amazing to you because it means new flowers will appear and you can wear your favorite dresses. The cold of winter is a big deal because it means snow will soon fall and we can see mini glaciers by our favorite place. Pain is a big deal because you don’t like to see someone sad or hurting. Happiness is a big deal to you because everything should be celebrated. To you, everything is a big deal… you give flash hands to life! And for a very long while, I tried to suppress your drastic emotions about the bad and only encouraged the good. And even then I tried to subdue your strong emotions towards the good because I never wanted you to be disappointed by high hopes. I always want to protect you. But then it dawned on me. You are the only one that has it right… EVERY THING IS A BIG DEAL… Because to you LIFE is a big deal… and oh how I wish I learned this sooner.

You take your time with everything. And that can drive me crazy. You take your time preparing to go out. You take your time writing notes. You take your time thinking of answers and you take your time eating your food. And like many Moms, I constantly catch myself rushing you. “Hurry up. Eat. Get ready faster. Run with me down the street.. Rush. Rush RUSH!!! HURRY hurry hurry!” and then it dawned on me… You are the only one that has it right… What the hell are we all rushing for? We should take our time preparing for things so that things feel right and so that we get it right. We should take our time saying things so that we say what we mean and we mean what we say. We should slow down eating, and walking and talking… because so much is lost in translation. So much is left unseen. We should all slow down and ENJOY what we are doing because… Life is a big deal. And everything should be more of a big deal to us.

My Queena, what I am trying to say is, today you are 9, and today I celebrate the day you came to me. I have learned way more from you then I could ever teach you. You are a blessing to my life, and I am very so happy to be your Mom. We often say “Your aura is rainbow” and it’s because your soul is that beautiful. And we are all so lucky to have you apart of our lifetime. You are a big deal to me.

My sweet girl, always remember… Life is full of amazing things. Always take a minute to smell the flowers by your feet. Feel the Sun on your face. Let the Rain cleanse your soul. Love with all that you have. Laugh with every breath. Live with purpose. Fight for your dreams. Reach for the Stars, Moon and Sun… Believe in you… cause I do. And remember, that I will always be here… right by your side… cheering you on.

Happy 9th Birthday. May this New Year bring you all the happiness and love you bring to us… And more.

Love always & forever – your biggest fan,

Mom

Today you are 9. And I today I celebrate you